“And the Angel of the Lord appeared to him, and said to him, “The Lord is with you, you mighty man of valor!” Judges 6:12.
I would love to have seen Gideon’s face when the Angel of the Lord told this to him. After all, when the Angel visited him, he was in the middle of threshing wheat in a winepress in order to hide it from the Midianites. The Angel of the Lord then turns to Gideon and says: “Go in this might of yours, and you shall save Israel from the hand of the Midianites. Have I not sent you?” And what was Gideon’s reply? “O my Lord, how can I save Israel? Indeed my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house.”
It looks like Gideon had a very low opinion about himself. God is wanting to do something great through Gideon, and yet there is so much fear and low self esteem in him that he is blinded by the fact that God wants to use him. So Gideon does what so many of us do when we want proof that this is really God: He asks for a sign. I have asked this question many times in my life. God if this is really what you want me to do, then you’re going to have to show me a sign. How foolish I was to ask God for this. If I would be spending time with God everyday, shouldn’t I already know what His will is for my life? And yet, fear and doubt begin to envelop me and I begin to ask God for proof that He is really speaking to me. I mean, who am I that God would choose me to do something great for Him? And yet the Bible says in 1 Corinthians 1:27 that:
“God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty.”
Have you ever felt like Gideon? Has God called you to do something so big, that you don’t think you are equipped for the job? You look around and see so many other people who would be better candidates, and yet you wonder why on earth God has chosen you. After all, you may feel like you are the last person God would want to use. You look at yourself and see all of the flaws, but God looks at you and sees His finished product. God sees you completely different than the way you see yourself.
I know I have questioned God many times why He chose me to become a Pastor’s Wife and a Worship Leader. I feel so inadequate most of the time. And to tell you the truth, I have probably failed many times. And yet, despite my low opinion about myself and all of my flaws, God moves mightly. I think the reason God calls the ones who feel the least qualified for the job is because, one, He will receive all of the glory, and two, He can trust us with whatever it is He is calling us to do. God will always give you the ability for the work He has for you to do.
Gideon laid out two more fleeces just to make sure he was hearing from God. You have to understand something, Gideon was full of fear and he was so used to being a nobody that he could not comprehend why God was choosing him. Like Gideon, you may feel like everyone has forgotten you. You may feel abandoned and been told that you were crazy for thinking God would want to use you. But you are in the right position for God to raise you up and call you to be a mighty man or woman of valor. Don’t allow people to dictate to you whether or not you are good enough. God made you and He thinks you are perfect. He has given you dreams and desires for a reason. And you can either trust him to perfect what He has given you, or you can succomb to fear and say to yourself, “this isn’t from God.”
“I want to help you decide that, by the power of God, you will not be ordinary.” -Smith Wigglesworth
You have a purpose and because of the grace that God showers upon us, He has chosen you in spite of all of your flaws.